Before coming to Mercy, I was controlled by fears that I wasn’t good enough for God. I was stuck striving to earn God’s love. Underneath my “perfect” facade I was hiding an eating disorder I’d been struggling with for 10 years. I constantly carried a load of secrets and grew to isolate more and more. I was involved in church and I loved the Lord, but I believed something was deeply wrong with me because I was still in bondage. I thought I was a victim to my desires and habits.
I heard about Mercy because a mentor of mine gave me the book Starved and Beyond Starved, by Nancy Alcorn. I had heard about Mercy, but my heart was hard towards giving up my life to seek help. The Lord worked on my heart for months and finally I knew He was leading me to pursue freedom with the help of Mercy Multiplied.
In the module Renewing the Mind I realized I had learned everything upside down. The Holy Spirit was opening my eyes to see the power of Jesus’ resurrection that was already placed inside of me. I had the choice to choose life or death. I continued to learn who I truly am in Jesus and I finally understood that I am a daughter of infinite value and worth to God. He has always had good in store for me.
A turning point for me happened while I was at Mercy. As I began to trust God I could see that all my hope and trust had been placed on unstable ground. I was being undone and felt more broken, exposed, and dependent than ever. Jesus was rebuilding my city on the eternal promises of His word and I learned it is okay to have wants and needs, to be broken and in need of a savior. God created me to love me and He wants to provide for me. I now know my true identity as a child of God and I don’t have to perform or hide. I am fully known and fully loved.
My plans after Mercy are to attend college and keep dreaming big with my miracle working God! I want to say thank you so much to the donors and supporters for partnering with Mercy Multiplied and believing in me. This is a safe place where Jesus meets the broken hearted one on one and transforms lives. My life is forever changed, and I am eternally grateful to this ministry.