Alissa – 2016 Graduate
I grew up in a very disconnected and conflict-ridden household. I have dealt with a tremendous amount of shame, fear of abandonment, fear of rejection, false responsibility and guilt for as long as I can remember. I developed an eating disorder at age 13. Eventually, in my adult years, this disorder led to a downward spiral cycle of bulimia, drinking, and not sleeping. After years of these behaviors, I knew I needed to get some serious help in breaking the cycle.
I found out about Mercy from my mom’s friends from church who were involved with the Mercy home in Sacramento, CA. As soon as I heard about Mercy I knew it was the place I needed to be. I was in a pit so deep that I knew God was the only way out. When I arrived I was desperate. I knew I couldn’t live like I had in the past anymore, but I didn’t know how to change.
A major turning point during my journey came after I returned from Christmas break. I acknowledged the brokenness I had on the inside. I began to allow God to take control and change me on the inside. Once I was able to get honest with God about my fears that He was not really going to come through for me or that He was somehow withholding from me, I experienced real break-through.
God has shown me that He is interested in helping me. God has shown me that I am capable of hearing Him speak. He is patient in teaching me and assisting in my growth. I have accepted that I am in a process and always will be, but regardless, He will be there with me. I have learned that I am created for relationship with Him and with other believers. I have an intimate relationship with Him through the Holy Spirit.
After graduating from Mercy I want to complete my undergraduate degrees in philosophy and communication. After that I plan on pursuing a career in broadcasting or public relations. I also hope to get married and start a family of my own.
I truly appreciate the generosity of all those who support Mercy. Thank you for making this life-transforming process possible! I now have the tools I need to move forward with the life that God designed me for.